Are you (still) a waiter?
Oh, the race has begun! The race for Xmas of course, that time of the year when we gift others and also hope to receive what we are most waiting for. Yes, waiting. Waiting for Xmas days, waiting to unwrap the gifts, waiting to reach home, waiting for snow, waiting for miracles, endlessly waiting.
This metaphor of waiting got me thinking of how much we are still waiting for our lives to become what we project they should be. To hear from that employer, that friend, that love interest, that family member. We put a stop to our life clock and to our breathing almost to see how the other one responds and if we are clear to go on with our life in the meantime.
But in the meantime, life just is. Am I right or am I right?
I’ve been cruising for most of my adult life between a waiter (aka person who waits for a time, event, opportunity) and a creator, until the time came when I had to take my life and power back. Now I rarely ask for anybody’s opinion about me and I wait for nobody to walk beside me. I stay more in my life and just notice who else wants to share glimpses of theirs with me.
I finally understood the saying: walk on your path and the right people will join you, walking side by side. People, things, places, experiences are just pieces of the time pie so, let’s enjoy them for the right moments and give ourselves permission to eat more of what life’s offering us. Less attachments, more curiosity.
So now that we are approaching the Xmas time, I invite you to do your own yearly check-up and count the times (and motives) you waited this year for others to give you something you needed or wanted.
Maybe you can use some of the prompts below.
Waiting is when we put our inner fire out for others to light it up whenever they want. Are you sure others know better what you mostly need?
Waiting is fearing others might judge us. But they don’t get to live your life. So if they aren’t paying your rent, why do you act like they do?
Waiting is learned helplessness. Who are you loyal to in your family? Did your mother wait for your father to come home, to act responsibly, to etc…
Waiting is when we act like we have no power over our life. Think of power like your own liberation, you deserve to be free, right?
Waiting is when we are afraid to handle and create our life the way we want to. Fear can also be tailwind, not just headwind.
Waiting is when we let our scared inner child take decisions for the grown up we are supposed to become. Take your own hand and walk.
Waiting is when we are just afraid to move on from the familiar into the unknown. But you are constantly doing it, you just didn’t notice intentionally.
Waiting is fear of failure. But starting just means having courage, not the absence of fear.
Waiting is inactive optimism. Think about why you are waiting for potential to become reality instead of living the actual reality? There is no such “right moment”, as time is fluid and not something you can tanbibly reach.
Waiting is also decision paralysis, when we have so much on our plate that we lack focus to decide for what’s next. Simplify, simplify, simplify. You are not supposed to live 10 lives now, just 1, no matter how appealing Instagram content is.
Waiting is when we are not trained to give up on people or things. But this is something we can learn as adults as it is one of the most healthy things you can do for yourself.
So, this Xmas, choose bravery over waiting. In just a couple of weeks or so, astrologically we are ending a cycle of bravery in which all of us, more or less, were invited to wait no more. To start that life, that job, that path, that romance, that relocation. Yes, astrology indicates also the times when it’s favourable to do these changes and start these cycles. But before action there needs to be alignment within ourselves. Maybe this 1.5 year cycle was here to show us what courage is and why we need it. And that’s it. Now it’s up to you to move on with fire in your heart and plans. (Fire in astrology and Chinese metaphysics symbolise creation, initiation, initiative, innovation, courage, movement)
Going forwards needs no strings to the past. Because no boat can leave harbour with its anchor still in the sand. We are living just as much as we give permission to live.
These days, Full Moon in Gemini in a conversation of tension with Neptune brings us dreams of releasing the un-wanted or un-needed. A clearing of the emotional patterns that we give too much power over us. Take some time to talk to the close ones, bond with new people, circle your life around new avenues and try to open up to life. Invite the new already even if it’s still crowded within you.
I am opening up the list of consultations for January 2025, so feel free to contact me on Instagram or at hello@roxanamarin.life.
During the next weeks, I will include in the weekly newsletter more information on the energies of 2025.
Here’s a gallery of beauty to heal and uplift your Sunday from ArtSafari 2024 and Targ de Frumos.
